letting go

my goddaughter started kindergarten yesterday, and i can not believe that it has been 5 years since she was born. gah! where in the world does the time go? i went back to douglasville to be there yesterday morning to take her to school, and seeing her all dressed up and walking into that classroom brought a tear to my eye. ok a few tears. but i can't help but realize that she is growning up ( i know i know she is only 5) and this is only the beginning. i'm not her mom, but i am her godmother, and i feel like i was having to let go. this is the first time that i've had to do that. the first big step in her life where she is doing this on her own. the hardest part was admitting to myself that she doesn't need us to be there with her, that she is God's child and he is there with her, and she will be fine because her life is in his hands. 

then this got me thinking about everything in my life that may not be going so well right now. i try to be in control and try to fix things and try to hold on to things that it may be time to let go of.   i forget that i'm not in the drivers seat and when things get off track God is the only one who can fix them.  lately things have been crazy in my relationships in general and i'm praying for the strength to find the wisdom and courage to do what God wants me to do with it all.  i have to let go.  i guess my first lesson in that was watching that amazing little girl, that i love more than words can say, walk into that classroom and start a new chapter of her life, as i walked away.

   

Lord please keep her heart near yours <3